Westworld star Evan Rachel Woods recently sat down for an interview with Rolling Stone, where she addressed her personal demons. Here are some of the highlights:
On questioning reality:
"What if this is all bullshit? What if this is just conditioning? What if all this is learned and not true? Who am I really, without my programming?"
On the success of Westworld:
"The showrunners and HBO warned me, 'You know, your life's probably going to change after this.' I couldn't handle all the attention when I was younger, but I feel like I'm in a place where I'm not going to collapse under the pressure."
On her experience as a child actor:
"I was shy and insecure. Any child actor will tell you that you don't have a lot of the tools or the experience to combat a lot of the criticism or very adult situations being thrown at you."
On dating Marilyn Manson:
"I met somebody that promised freedom and expression and no judgments. And I was craving danger and excitement. I looked at my mother one day and said, 'Mom, I'm gonna get on this tour bus for eight months and see the world and have a crazy journey and find myself, and if people aren't OK with that, I'm sorry, but I can't live my life for other people.' Most teenagers are searching for identity, and I was thrown into a situation where I was supposed to have that already figured out. Then you're demonized for figuring it out and getting messy. People would call me a whore when I walked down the street, and you can't not be hurt by that."
On a suicide attempt at 22:
"[It] was, weirdly, the best-worst thing that ever happened to me. 'Cause it did not work."
On being a survivor of sexual assault:
"I've been raped. By a significant other while we were together. And on a separate occasion, by the owner of a bar . . . I don't believe we live in a time where people can stay silent any longer. Not given the state our world is in with its blatant bigotry and sexism."
"It was always talked about like a phase or something stupid, or something you were doing for attention. You know, bisexuality is worthy of eye rolls. And I didn't realize how damaging that was until I tried to have healthy relationships as an adult and realized that there was still all this shame and conditioning and stigma around my sexuality that was really affecting the way I related to people. I think I was taken advantage of because someone knew there was something about me that they could exploit."
Read the full interview at Rolling Stone.